Friday, February 1, 2008

Finally Friday...

Someone once told me not to wish my time away. He told me I should enjoy everyday. Well, for the most part I do. Then there are the days when I just can't bear to get out of bed. It mostly happens when I have to do something unpleasant at work, or I know I have to call an unpleasant client. Sometimes I am trying to fix something that I inadvertently screwed up. It's at this time that I feel most vulnerable. I get super paranoid that these slip ups are begining to count up and that one day I may just be asked to leave. I don't like this pressure of worrying constantly. I have to be sure the client is covered, but they aren't happy with the premium and take it out on us. Sometimes I am asked to re-quote policies, increasing coverage so they can be in a preferred company and the premium either stays the same (which is fine) or goes up (which isn't fine) and I need to sell this idea to the client. It's really begining to wear on me. I haven't been able to sleep or eat much (except dinner) this week. I keep saying that I need to find another job, but, what do I do? It comes down to this, I'm unhappy but I'm afraid to leave. If I leave, I want to get out of this industry completely. I never want to look at another insurance policy other than my own ever again. So, what do I do? I keep wondering if there is something I can do with my love of knitting. Working in a yarn shop probably wouldn't pay very much and I need medical benefits. I suppose I could look into it though. I don't know, I just don't know what to do anymore. I have to stop complaining and do something though.

**DEEP CLEANSING BREATH** I need to get to work.

Happy Friday everybody.

PS: Today's Aries Horoscope for Feb 01, 2008

If you're involved in the arts, dear Aries, expect today to hear about an opportunity to exhibit your work publicly. There should be a very positive reaction to it, so you can expect a lot of compliments and ego-boosts. An opportunity to earn a little money from your work could also come your way. Don't turn it down out of shyness or insecurity. Go for the gold. This trend is likely to continue, so you should make the most of it.


pigbook1 said...

Oh I am so with you on the job front. I quit my last job and it was not a "nice" resignation but it had to be done for my own mental health. I was lucky enough to get another job fairly quickly, but I know the worry, anxiety, etc believe me it isn't easy. I wish you best of luck on this step in your life.

donnac368 said...

Oh Ang this is so me! I'd rather stay at a job I hate then go for the unknown. I hate change, yet lately that seems all I am faced with. Hang in there girl, this storm will blow over. xxx000